An old love....found again!

Wow, I'm still on a "high" from yesterday I just wanted to post about it. It's probably the most exciting thing that has happened to me lately :)

So, I tried really hard to save up some money for Hailey to ride this week and since I started my new waitressing job I was able to pull some extra money together. It's a good thing, because she's been dieing to ride! We went yesterday for the first time in a month. For a while now, Hailey has been asking her instructor if I could ride too. While I would LOVE to, I just wasn't sure if the instructor wanted money if I rode, or if I was just going to be able to hop on a horse for free? I surely didn't want to pay for myself to have a lesson to the tune of an additional $40! So, we never really pushed it. Although, Hailey did. She must not have believed me that I could ride a horse :) After all, I am a "mom" and being a mom is I "do" in her eyes. There's no way your mother can have any talents :-P

Well, it turned out that her instructor (Elizabeth) said that if I wanted to hop on Sassy (the horse Hailey rides) I could, after Hailey was done. So, of course, the whole lesson Hailey wanted to be done with her lesson so she could see me ride! AFter she was finally done, it was my turn. I was excited, but nervous too. I haven't been on a horse in over 7 years. Since I was pregnant with Hailey! As a kid, I spent most of my waking hours either on my horse or with my horse. I was horse-crazy, much like Hailey is. I honestly think that the love for horses is in your blood. It's funny how Hailey loves horses like I did as a kid and I CERTAINLY did not push it on her (it's an expensive sport/hobby!). I had to give up my horse life when I got pregnant in high school. I couldn't afford and didn't have time for newborn twins and my horse. I was even going to go to College at UNH with a major in Equine Science. My dream for as long as I can remember, has been to own a breeding farm and that's what I was going to go to college for. Needless to say, life doesn't always pan out the way you expect. Once the twins were born, horses were put on the back-burner for me. When they were young, I did have various horse jobs. I worked at and then managed the riding at Castle in the Clouds for years. I loved that job! I also was a barn-girl at a huge barn in Tuftonboro when I got pregnant with Hailey. That was the last time I rode.

You know, turns out that riding a horse is much like riding a bike. You never really "forget" how to do it. Once I was up there, something inside me just turned on again. Something I haven't felt in a very, VERY long time. I don't really know how to explain it, but it's so powerful that I'm sitting here typing with teary-eyes. It was truly amazing, and awakening!! What a feeling to find passion again! I got up there on that pony (she's a big pony)and rode around that ring like I had never even stopped riding. I think I was pretty good too!! For someone that hasn't been on a horse in over 7 yrs. I trotted a little, and Hailey was begging me to canter. Which, if you don't know, is faster that a trot and a LOT harder and bouncier. I did it and it felt great! Even the instructor was impressed on how well I could still ride. Hailey got a kick out of seeing me ride, and I felt really proud to show one of my kids that I, too, can have talents.

However, now there is only one problem. Now I want to get back up there!!!! I feel like such a giddy, excited kid again!!

The weather must be nice...!!

....because I haven't posted to my blog in a while! Oops. I haven't had much to write about lately anyway. It's been kind of quiet here. Well, I wouldn't say "quiet" just non-eventful (which is a good thing).

Since I'm pretty much laid-off my job for the summer (I do office work/customer service for my father) I had to go out and get a new job. Yuck! I don't mean to sound lazy, but I hate working. It's not so much the working part, it's the "Now I'm away from the family" part that I don't like. I am the taxi for the family and now that I'm not home (and my husband drives a two-seater truck) they are going to have to get used to finding other rides places. It's going to be quite the adjustment on everyone's part. Right now I'm only working 4 nights a week, but this summer it will be 7 nights a week. I've been "unemployed" for about 2 weeks now, so it's been quite the struggle here financially which is why we haven't done much other than "free" stuff like the park, hiking, etc. Hailey hasn't been riding in a couple weeks either because it's just too expensive when you are unemployed :(




So, now that I have the summer covered, I will need to find something to do starting this fall. It stinks. I have had the strong "urge" to start a career for a while now. Now that the kids are getting bigger I guess. It's just trying to figure out WHAT exactly I want to do! Hopefully it will come to me soon, since summer isn't very long.


Sometimes I feel like I never post about my two other kids, lol. Well they are teenagers, so I guess there's not much to post about with them. I probably see them about as much as I post about them on this blog. Just kidding!! They have their own things going on and I am involved in their everyday lives, I just don't get the opportunity to take pictures of them much. So, here they are....

This was this time last year, at Junior High Graduation. This is the most recent picture I have of them together. Sad.


This is the second most recent picture I have of them together. It was taken in Disney World, two Marches ago!

Update...kind of.

We had our initial appointment with the endocronologist yesterday. We had to wake up early and leave the house by 6:15 a.m. in order to get there by 8 a.m. Luckily, my mom came with us since I'm not good at reading directions and driving at the same time.

It went well and the Dr. is very nice. Hailey was happy it was a girl doctor :). She just had a regular exam, nothing special and then had to have some blood drawn. The poor girl, she had to have 5 viles taken! They made her sit for a few minutes afterwards because they were worried she might be dizzy. Since they send their blood out to California, we won't hear back for 3-4 weeks. We have our consultation meeting on June 2nd, so now we have to wait another month to find out what's wrong with her and figure out where we go from here. I hate the wait!

The twins were so worried about her yesterday too. Sammy borrowed someone's cell phone (hers is broken, we're waiting for her replacement to arrive) and snuck into the bathroom at lunch to call me in the middle of the day to see how the appointment went. Sammy said she cried yesterday too because she was so worried (however, she does have PMS right now too). I had to work last night, and Dylan watched her for a little while, and when I got home Hailey said that Dylan and her went for a bike ride and played basketball and t-ball outside yesterday. He must have been feeling a little worried about her too, since he doesn't usually do that with her! It was nice to hear that he played with her though :) So, I think everyone is just a little more "patient" with Hailey right now, and giving her a little "extra" attention because we are all just so concerned. Not about the precocious puberty, but more for what else it could "possibly" be (tumor). The endocronologist did say that a tumur was rare, but she's not ruling it out. I guess the blood work will give us a better idea, and then we'll do the CAT scan.

After the appointment, we played "hookie" and went to the mall and did some shopping!!! We had a fun girls day out :)